tuesday and counting

Continue with my story. Oh does it matter. Not really. Needless to say my husband cam't collect ss because they said he can't do what he use to do but oh yes he can be retrained. It has but a big burden on me. Now my job is gone to Mexico and China, the company called it downsizing . LOL. It's their way and not having to pay out anything and wow I can go to scholl because I am now a displaced worked and am up shit creek because my spouse no longer can work. I am trying to ge into school but after 30 something years of being out high school, the birth certifacte was no good because it was too old and unreadable so I had to apply for it in Montana. which may take up to two weeks. So much for going to school next month. Now I guess it'll be time to find a job, take care of hubby andthe two grandkids. I thought things would be easier by the time I got to this age. But no such luck. Well got to go kids will get home in a few.

tis the week before xmas and nothing has been done

tis the week before xmas and nothing is done, no shopping, no idea what to buy or make, no money, not much time. Thought we would have a kid free weekend but Mom showed up at 11p.m. last night with the two bundles of joy. She stayed a five whole minutes and out the door with her "girlfriend". Off to who knows where andd may be I just don't care any more. she may show up sometime this afternoon to see the boys but usually she goes to bed and makes them watch tv. So much for quality time with her kids.
My mind is blank when it comes to what to do. Since my husband had quardruple bypass in Feb it has gone done hill. He was 45 days in ICU. They first had problems with the surgery. The Drs tore a hole in the back of his heart so he was dead twice but good thing he was able to come back both times, ha, ha. he recieved lung damge, nerve damage and a coma for five days. they told the only thing tto do was pray ,so I did. He came out and was able to go home but he acted like a four year old. didn't know how to buckle the seat belt in the car, could dress himself, would go soil himself and then his wound on his chest oozed. they told us it was normal. when his heart rate got up to 130 pm. I took him to the ER. They told us he had a infection. They then toook out his sturnum because it was so bad. They went in the next week and did a "flap". He now looks like Frankenstein on the chest. His brain funcution is sorted of normal. He does now dress himself